Notes: before you guys throws tomato at me, gomen!!! I wanna try writing something with triangle love plot.
The atmosphere at the dining hall certainly feels weird. Everyone is tense and nervous for some reason. Jun takes a slice of meat and pops it into his mouth following with rice. He takes a glance at a girl sitting beside him who done nothing but eat.
“So…” Jun started the conversation by looking at her. She looks startled at first but continue looking at him.
“Are you on vacation?” he asked. In his heart, he wished that she is coming back for him. To stay in his arms once more. Lightly, she shakes her head.
“I am here for work. Heard that I need to organize someone exhibition but they didn’t finalize who’s yet,” Satomi answered. She continues eating after that just to avoid watching him. Even after all this years living without him, she thought that it will be okay and everything will be fine but all he need to do is just stares at her with those eyes, and her heart will fluttered.
She closes her eyes momentarily to straighten herself and continue eating while making small talks with him and his mother. All this time, she could feel that he keep staring at her and how she wished she could be in his arm again but she know, it will never be possible for someone like her, to be with someone like him.
“Satomi-chan told me that she gonna stay here at least for a year,” his mother informed him. He smiles at his mother for giving the information at the right time. He could feel that she fidgeting a bit. Once again, Jun look at her. There is nothing much of changes in her appearances. Still the same long curly hair he love to twirl his finger on, the same white milky skin he love to touch, the same eyes he loves to stares and definitely the same lips he loves to kiss. Her makeup always is minimal and he loves it that way. She looks great in long sleeved purple blouse with simple black fitting slack.
“So, where are you staying?” Jun asked. Satomi stopped piling the dishes and stares at him. After a moment, she answered.
“At Ritz Carlton Hotel,” Satomi answered. Jun whistled in awe.
“You making a lot of money,” he joked. She laughs at his jokes and shakes her head. She brings the dishes toward the kitchen sink and naturally starts washing the dishes. As if nothing weird happening, she passed the clean wet dishes to Jun and he starts to wipes it.
“I miss moments like this,” Jun said it slowly. Upon hearing, Satomi stop washing the dishes and bow down her head. She shakes her head and continues washing the dishes and passed it to Jun when she is done.
“I miss it too, Jun but you do know we can’t,” she said at the end. He could feel her gaze burning on his side and he slowly nods his head. As they stand in the kitchen, he stares at her eyes and wishes thing are different and their situation is not the way it is. He leaned towards her slowly and connects their forehead together. He could feel her tears are slowly falling and he wiped it with his thumb. She did not resist when he starts to kiss her and slowly, he deepen the kiss. After a moment, Satomi push him away gently. He kissed her forehead and caresses her cheek.
“Goodbye again Satomi,” Jun whispered to her ears. She nods slowly and watches as he walks to the front door. The moment he leaves, she slumped on the floor, her hand covering her own mouth to muffle the crying sound. She lean her head on the kitchen cabinet and close her eyes. She wished she can turn back time and change her past but no matter what happen, this is her life.
Jun on the other hand, lean his head on the steering wheel. His tears dropped on his jeans and his knuckles turned white due to him grabbing the steering wheel so tight. He wished he could turn back time and change his decisions but what he does now is his passions and there is nothing he can do to change that. He roughly wipes his tears away with his hand and drove away. In his mind, there is only one girl that he loves and that one girl is the only one he wants.
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Matsumoto Jun : 18 years old
Yamamoto Satomi : 15 years old
“Onii-chan! Found you!” shout Satomi while looking at Jun who currently laying down at the playground slide. Jun glares at her as if she is the most annoying thing in the world. It makes her heart breaks and she’s wondering what the reason for Jun’s change of behavior is. One of her friends told her that it is just a phase that any boys will go to; they called it a rebellion age.
“Onii-chan, kaachan looking for you,” Satomi said while pulling Jun’s hand to make him stand but Jun refused to budge. Satomi let go Jun’s hand for a while and put her hand on her waist.
“Kaachan will get mad, you know,” Satomi said again but it seems that it didn’t affect Jun at all.
“Oniichan…ah!” Satomi pulls Jun’s hand again but he immediately pulls his hand away from her grip. It causes Satomi to lose her footing and fall backward. Jun immediately gets up and checks on Satomi. She still lay there on the sand looking at the night sky.
“Satomi-chan, are you okay?” Jun asked while looking at her, checking if there are any injuries. It startled him when tears start to fall from her eyes. He immediately grabs Satomi’s shoulder and makes her sit down while checking if she has any serious injuries. Satomi pushed Jun away and rest her forehead on her knees. Her shoulder shakes as she cries and Jun just sit there, wondering what he should do. He slowly kneels in front of her and caresses her hair.
“Onii-chan, I don’t want to hate you,” Satomi whispered. Jun closed his eyes and stop caressing her hair.
“I missed my old Onii-chan,” he heard she whisper again and her whole body shakes as she cry.
“You don’t talk to me anymore,” she said again. She hugged her knees tighter and continue crying. Jun feels helpless and don’t know what to do. He didn’t know that his behavior hurt Satomi so much. He kneels closer to her and hugged her.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered to her over and over again until she calm down. When she finally calm, he let her go and turned around. He instructs her to climb onto him so that he can piggy back her and walked home. He could feel that Satomi’s arm tighten around his neck and her breath is close to his ears.
“Onii-chan, do you hate me?” Satomi asked slowly. She is afraid of the answer that he will give her and she don’t want to be hated by the only person who important to her. Jun’s laughter rang around the neighborhood.
“What are you saying~?” Jun said and gently smacks the back of his head with Satomi’s forehead. Satomi feels relieved and tighten her hold around Jun’s neck and kissed her cheek. Jun immediately stop and turn his head a bit to look at Satomi.
“I hope you don’t do that to anyone,” Jun warned. Satomi smiles and nods her head once. Jun smiles too and continues to walk home. He shakes his head a bit and tries to breathe slowly to calm his heartbeat.
She doesn’t know what she is doing, my sunshine is innocent.
He could feel her warm at his back and her warm breath breathes on his skin. It has been since forever that he figured it out that he is in love with her but being with him might hurt her. He can’t publicly announce that she is his girlfriend if she accepts his love and he’s afraid that she will leave him if she rejects. To be safe, he choose to just stay as her big brother but sometimes he wonder, what will happen if he confess.
My sunshine is better without me.
One thing for sure, he will never do anything to hurt her and confessing his love might hurt her. He makes a promise to himself, he will be the bestest big brother ever.
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Present Day:
Nino takes a sip from his soda and then continues looking at the scenery outside the café. He stretch a little and laugh a bit when he saw a child running away from his mother. He sighed and lay his head down on the table and closes his eyes. All of the sudden, a crash sound can be heard just beside his table. Nino immediately looks up and saw that someone has fall and currently busy picking up her item that fall. She noticed that Nino was looking at her and bows her head a little as an apology.
“I am so sorry,” she said while still busy picking up her items. Nino noticed that she have a few art supplies fall out from her bag. Nino gets up and help her to gather her stuff.
“Thank you so much, Ninomiya-san,” she said and stand up. She check if she got all her item before bow down again to Nino.
Nino’s heartbeat suddenly increased. He saw a lot of beautiful woman but he never saw this kind before. She has a long wavy hair that shines when the sun hits it. A beautiful brown eyes that the color as close as Nino’s eyes and definitely a bright smile. A smile that in his mind, he wants to see more. Nino notices the signs, he attracted towards her and he definitely want to get to know her better.
She smiles at him and was saying something but Nino can’t heard it because mainly, he focus staring at her. She tilts her head when Nino didn’t response to her words and she waves her hand in front of Nino’s face. Nino blinks his eyes and shakes his head.
“I’m sorry, what were you saying?” Nino asked.
“Are you okay?” that woman asked, her face shows that she worried.
“Ah, I am fine,” Nino said and laugh a bit. She smiles again and laughs along.
“Please, grab a sit,” Nino offered while pointing towards his table.
“Eh, it’s okay. You must come here to relax, being an idol and all. You also choose a very secluded area in the café. I don’t want to bother you,” she said while looking around to find another table but unfortunately, at the most secluded area in the café, there are only one table.
“It’s okay, I can share,” Nino said while smiles his trademarks smile. He don’t want to let her go because if he let her go now, he have this feeling that he will never saw her again. She laughs a bit at his statement and look at the table.
“Well, if you don’t mind me bothering you, I’ll take your offer,” she said while placing her bag on the opposite chair. Nino immediately pulls out the chair for her and as she seated, she thank him.
“Ninomiya Kazunari desu,” Nino introduced himself after he sits in front of her. She laughs a bit.
“I know. Yamamoto Satomi desu,” she introduced herself and they shake hands. Somehow, that name seems familiar to him but he chooses to ignore it.
“You draw?” Nino asked while pointing at her bag. Satomi nods her head and takes out her sketch book. She offered the book to him and Nino decided to take a look at it.
“You should meet my leader,” Nino said while still looking at her drawings. In a moment, he notices that her body stiff a little before she smiles and nod her head. He is assuming that maybe she is Ohno’s fan and all of the sudden he feels jealousy. He changes the topic by asking about her and they have a few conversations. He told her a lot of jokes just because he want to see her laugh. At this moment, Nino feels happy and he definitely in love. After a few hours hanging out with each other, Satomi glance at her wristwatch and notices that it is late.
“I’m sorry Ninomiya-san but I have to go,” Satomi said and start to gather her stuff.
“Kazu, called me Kazu,” Nino offered. Satomi smiles at him and nods her head. She takes out her name card and give it to Nino.
“Then, Kazu-kun, called me Satomi,” she said and stands up. Nino stand up too and immediately pays the bill.
“Oh, you don’t have too,” Satomi said while taking out her wallet.
“It’s okay, next time you treat me,” Nino said while stopping her from taking out her wallet.
“Come on, I sent you to your hotel,” Nino offered while opening the door for her. They get out from the café and immediately Nino pulls her towards where he parks his car. Satomi laugh a bit and gets in into Nino’s car when he opened the door for her. He drives her to the hotel and when she about to gets out from his car he snatches her phone and key in his phone number. Nino smirks at Satomi while she just laughs and shakes her head.
“You are unbelievable,” Satomi said and snatches back her phone.
“Believe it,” Nino said and smile playfully at her while wriggling his eyebrows. Satomi waves goodbye at him and it takes a lot of energy to drove away. He wants to spend more time with her and he sighed.
I want her, I want her to be mine…
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